Day 6 of the ’30 Ways To Play With Your Imposter Syndrome’ Challenge.
“THEY look healthy enough — plenty of brightly coloured salad vegies, fan-cut avocado and an array of nutritious looking ingredients like raw fish, beans and carefully arranged seeds and grains … but are Buddha bowls or poke bowls all they are cracked up to be?”
“Generally speaking this kind of bowl is exceptionally healthy. Packed full of omega 3 fats, nutrient rich vegetables and minimal calories and processed carbohydrates, a traditional poke is a great choice nutritionally.”
“Things have gone a little off track in recent times since the poke bowl trend has become a little more gentrified.”
“A closer look will reveal that your typical Buddha bowl will range from just 400-500 calories when the core ingredients remain salad, protein and a small serve of wholegrains such as brown rice or quinoa.
On the other hand, when the ingredient mix includes fried meat, a hearty serve of noodles, almost an entire avocado along with plenty of dressing, your healthy Buddha bowl can equate to more than 1000 calories per serve along with 60-80g of fat — the equivalent of two meals and more than a day’s total fat.“
Good things can get out of control sometimes.
Sometimes they grow into something new, different, wonderful.
Sometimes they bloat beyond their intended purpose, into something worse.
Sometimes that viewpoint is subjective.
But the above article is about when things get worse.
Like the Buddha bowl, maybe your imposter syndrome had a humble start too.
Maybe it started from a point of humility.
And modesty about your abilities.
To NOT think too highly of yourself.
To not be arrogant, egotistical, or to bite off more than you can chew.
And you know what? A bit of humility can be wonderful.
Maybe your humility had humble beginnings.
(Heh. Humility being humble. How’s that for recursive self-referential meta-ness?)
It was healthy even.
But overtime, it bloated.
You didn’t just stay modest.
Whatever fuelled your modesty, creeped forward in scope.
And eventually it went too far.
You vigilantly rejected evidence of your awesomeness.
Convinced you weren’t skilled.
That you’re a fraud.
So maybe your humility isn’t as healthy as it used to be.
Just like the Buddha bowls, extra bits kept creeping into the core meal.
It kept the same label, but secretly became bad for you.
(To be honest, the bigger Buddha bowls actually don’t sound that bad to me. But I’m trying to make a POINT darn it!)
Have you been binging too much on feeling like a fraud lately?
Convinced it’s humility, while it’s actually junk food in disguise?
Has it clogged up the arteries of your belief in yourself?
Left you feeling sluggish in tackling the next stage of your life?
It’s not always easy giving up a bad diet.
Especially one you think is good for you.
It can feel weird, almost empty, to give it up.
But what if you went cold turkey on your imposter syndrome?
And gave it up for five minutes, an hour, a day, a week?
ALLOWING yourself to think highly of yourself. Or other people to think highly of you.
I experimented with the keto diet for a month.
I had to give up a LOT of carbohydrates.
But my sensitivity to sugar went up.
And many sweets became FAR too sweet for me.
My mouthwash started tasting like ice cream!
Going cold turkey is sometimes a great way to reset your baseline.
Rejecting praise and recognition can almost become addictive for some reason.
But once I allowed myself to ACCEPT the occasional compliment…
… from both myself and others…
… it made me MUCH more sensitive to my imposter syndrome.
And how self-indulgent I felt sometimes…
… when I rejected other people’s praise…
… in favour of my own self-criticism.
What would happen if you gave up that self-criticism?
Just for a little while?
And accepted the approval of others?
(And yourself too?)
What would that detox do for you?
That’s all from me today.
See you tomorrow.
Lucus “open to compliments today” Allerton
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Taken 2018-11-06 at 12.43.35 pm